She Shapes Up

Back Again

2011-03-17T20:12:00.000-07:00

Hi!

I'm back. You may have guessed that I didn't reach my New Year's goal. In fact, I've gained 15 lbs back. However, I can still fit into the smaller size jeans that I bought then and I don't feel defeated, because these are lifestyle changes and I didn't fail a diet, right? I was eating better and exercising more than I did before I started this blog, so I think that is success.

I kept intending to blog anyway, but a few things have kept me away. For one, my workplace let us know that we shouldn't be blogging in the library, even on lunch or other breaks. Two more positive reasons are that I became a Master Gardener intern for my county and I've had a lot of studying to do, and also I've made it a personal project to learn about Russia. I've been reading many Russian folktales to begin. If you want to see what I'm doing, look at my blog Book Besotted Librarian.

I bought that little black dress that I was hoping to wear when I reached my first goal of 199 lbs. I got a good deal on it online around "Black Friday," every retailers favorite time of year (cough, cough). If I can squish into it, I will put some pictures up and hopefully we can all watch changes until it fits me perfectly.
I also want to show you the dress that I get to wear in my friends' upcoming wedding. They were very thoughtful of their bridesmaids and so we can wear tea length black dresses. They gave us a choice of five styles. The gowns are black taffeta and they are all strapless, but I had wide straps put on mine and I'm going to wear a black chiffon shawl with it. I am very pleased. At the final fitting yesterday, the dress zipped up fine, and I felt very glamorous.

It's nice to be writing again!

Losing weight again!

2010-11-22T16:59:00.000-08:00

I have to admit, I doubt my scale lately. It doesn't seem as reliable as it once did. Possibly, this is due to my dogs using it as an extra boost up to try to look out our bedroom window. But, Saturday, the scale said I weigh 203. 203! This is truly exciting. I weighed myself three times at different spots in the bedroom, and backed up by the tape measure and the way my clothes fit, I'm choosing to believe it. It gives me a boost in my weight loss efforts, and if it isn't true yet, then I guess that it will be soon.

I have to confess: I would truly love to be less than 200 lbs for the new year. Four pounds away doesn't seem like much, but you know how you can get caught in a struggle or plateau. Also, the holidays are fast approaching, which will mean really paying attention to what I'm eating and how much I exercise. But, I'm resolving right here to do the best I can to hit my first big goal by January first. If I eat reasonably and stay on excercise task and I still can't make it, then so be it. But, I am going to try!

For fun, I went to My Virtual Model, to see what my big goal, 137 lbs, would look like. It seems that their Virtual Weight Loss model feature isn't working anymore, but I put together a before and after. The problem is that she doesn't look much like me, but there you go. Imagine blond hair for the bangs and some cat eye glasses, and we're getting closer. If anybody knows how to photoshop, take a crack at her.

True confessions & new kitty

2010-11-08T14:28:00.000-08:00

My ticker isn't exactly accurate anymore. Since my visit to my parents', I've put on 5 lbs and then lost 1. So, I'm at 210 again. Now I ask you, why? Or really, I've been asking me. Was the idea of breaking 200 lbs somehow too scary on some level? At first, I was just lazy about getting back to my lifestyle changes. I was still in vacation mode and cycling seemed inconvenient. Unfortunately, my walking backup plan failed, because it was getting dark by the time I got home from work. And there were too many meals out followed by special desserts. The evidence is in the tightness of my new jeans.

I didn't go completely beserk. I didn't bring home sweets and eat them wildly. On Halloween, I gorged on Annie's Bunny Grahams instead of candy. I continued to eat fruit. But, I haven't done was was needed to lose or even maintain my weight.

I'm back in the saddle, but I obviously need to delve into my emotional relationship with food and body image. There were days during the last month when all I thought about was food. It was like when they say that teenagers think about sex every three seconds. I would think about eating. I'd be at work, and every moment of downtime I'd think how I wanted to eat something. Obviously, that's not food hunger. They were times when I think that I could have eaten cupcake after cupcake and never have felt satisfied. This wasn't consciously connected to anything bothering me. But, when I talked something over with my husband that had been brewing in the back of my mind, I have to say that I noticed that the compulsive eating thought disappeared the next day. Connected?

Then, I was ready the January 2010 issue of Shape magazine, and on page 107 they had a short article: "Don't let Your Feelings Make You Fat." They had some helpful tips, but they also mentioned several books that I hope to find at my library.

50 Ways to Soothe Yourself Without Food by Susan Albers

The Appetite Awareness Workbook: How to Listen to Your Body And Overcome Bingeing, Overeating, & Obsession With Food by Linda W. Craighead

The Food and Feelings Workbook: A Full Course Meal on Emotional Health by Karen R. Koenig

Women Food and God: An Unexpected Path to Almost Everything by Geneen Roth

100 Days of Weight Loss: The Secret to Being Successful on Any Diet Plan by Linda Spangle, R.N.

An Amazon search also led me to:

Eating the Moment: 141 Mindful Practices to Overcome Overeating One Meal at a Time by Pavel Georgievich Somov, Ph.D.

- which I will be checking out today.

I've been trying to follow the negative reinforcement pattern when I overeat, focusing on how uncomfortably full I feel afterward and how I wish I'd made a different choice. But I have to tell you, I ate a whole frozen pizza last night. Not a gigantic one, but bigger than a personal size, with a cracker crust, sauce, cheese, pineapple and (fake) bacon bits. When Kristian brought it out for me, I thought to myself that I shouldn't eat it all. But, I didn't take steps. I didn't remove a reasonable portion and refrigerate the rest. I knew that I would feel guilty after I was finished eating, but I still did. It tasted really good. But, not that good. Now I've asked Kristian to help me in the future by only serving me some pizza, not a whole pizza. I'm too weak to stop myself in that situation. It only makes sense; that's why I don't bring candy or other pre-life change sweets home. Why test yourself unnecessarily?

Also, it looks like my workplace will be providing access to weekly lunchtime Weight Watchers meetings not far from my building. It still costs money and I'd have to talk to my boss about getting that particular lunch period, but if ever there was a convenient time to do it, it's now. What do you think? Maybe I need an extra boost going into the holiday season.

Now, here is some good news. Kristian and I adopted a cat this weekend. We got her from the Humane Society and named her Maisy, middle name Rae. She is 7 months old, 5 lbs, and very sweet. So far she seems unafraid of anything, which is great. We don't want her to be intimidated by the dachshunds. Maisy has a cat tree inside a gated play area we've set up in the living room, so she has her own space. I'm so glad we found her! I've really been missing having a kitty.

Maisy

Zombie transformation: One way to lose weight...

2010-10-29T08:23:00.000-07:00

When your limbs fall off!

We did our Zombie Makeup 101 program for teens at the library this week. The incredibly talented Gabriel Wimmer came to Zombify us. I was thrilled to be a creature of the night!

Is painting your living room a workout?

2010-10-28T16:24:00.000-07:00

Because it feels like one. Up and down the ladder. Bend and stretch to paint. That's how I spent most of my weekend. But, it was so worth it. I've been dying to change the color since I moved in. It's gone from a Velveeta cheese gold to a match to Behr Provence Cream (a Butter Recipe Golden cake mix shade, prebaked).

I was able to devote my entire Saturday to painting, because I knew that I was going to see Great Big Sea in concert that evening. They are my current favorite band and I love to work out listening to them. They make me peddle faster. I went with my friend Mickey,who had never heard them but was game. We had a fine time. GBS did two sets and two en cours. My husband calls GBS my "horrid Celtic music", but I beg to differ.

Update: Trudging along & more Vintage clothing inspiration

2010-10-22T13:30:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile since I wrote, but I'm soldiering on. A vacation to my parent's house and a little excess celebration after I returned have brought me back up to 207 lbs, but I'm fighting with myself to stick to my goals! Honestly, the changing season makes me want to eat and sleep. I've had mad cravings for apple treats (as in crisp, cobbler, pie, baked, etc)and for waffles. The early darkening evenings kick my outdoor walking in the shins, so it will be more indoor bike time for me. Maybe it's time to get that hula hoop that I've been promising myself.

In the realm of pretty Etsy clothes, I've found some beauties:

Doesn't this make you want to dance? The Rita Hayworth Vintage 1920s Pink Sequin Dance Costume!

Sadly, It has sold, but here's the window shopping info anyway:

Zwzzy!Get Cute in Vintage

" ♥ THE most beautiful sequined vintage tap dance costume!

♥ Lovely salmon pink in color. Black ruffle trim, and layer underneath!
♥ Industrial hook-eyes in the back!
♥ Comes with matching garters! Due to age, the ribbons are somewhat falling apart on them, mostly in the back."

So sorry, but I can't find the information on this one:

The Ultimate Goddess Gown 1915 Titanic Draped Grecian Silk Lace Dress Edwardian Antique Designer Mint condition from Vintage Glitterati

"A simply stunning and very hard to find Edwardian Pleated and draped Silk Crepe and Lace dress from the Edwardian Era. Beautiful and stunning in multiple floating layers of silk, with a corset interior, dripping lace front and back, and antique lace applique at bodice front. Low cut and svelte. This gown is a collector piece and is in fabulous condition...We added fluttering lace applique streamers."

Two satisfying shopping finds

2010-10-04T14:37:00.000-07:00

Photo Of Ponte knit pencil skirt from Lane Bryant

I did a bit more clothes shopping this weekend, and I made a great find at Lane Bryant- the basic pencil skirt. I have been looking for this simple style in a basic color for a long, long time. It fit me perfectly in a size 18 (happy dance!) and even though I'm 5' 2", it hits me at the top of my knee. Hooray! I also bought it in heather grey. I like them so much that I may go back and buy them again on faith in a smaller size. I also got two fitted t-shirts, in navy and berry red and a pair of black tights. I hope that they fit well. I can't stand being strangled by hosiery and usually wear stockings. Do you have a favorite brand for plus size tights?

My other purchase was at the grocery store. I tried Fruit 2 Day in Mango peach, and I really like it. I almost didn't buy it, because my husband said it's better to eat your fruit than drink it, but I grabbed it at the last minute. That is a fine philosophy in the summer, but soon I'll be finding nothing but apples and oranges at the store. I know that I'm exaggerating, but as the season goes on, it will feel that way unless I'm creative. Anyway, I was happy with this juice, because it has big chunks of fruit in it. It was really refreshing and ideal for after a workout. At 120 calories, I'm okay with it! Find nutrition information here . Other flavors are Strawberry orange, Cherry grape, Pomegranate blueberry (next on my grocery list) and Pineapple banana (which will never cross my lips; I hate bananas!), plus two special edition flavors yearly.

Joined Calorie Count

2010-09-23T14:18:00.000-07:00

I weighed myself today, and I still weigh 209. I suspect it's because we've been going out to eat a lot and because my exercise bike is temporarily out of order (there's a place on the cord where the wire is showing- not good!). In order to keep myself more aware of what I consume on a weekly basis, I joined Calorie Count because it's free and because it seems to have some of the name brand and restaurant foods that I eat. You can also record your daily activity.

What are your experiences with these websites? Do they help you?

Addition 8:05 PM: I did not eat homemade apple pie today. I did not eat homemade cinnamon rolls today. We had a potluck at work and my co-workers brought them. I wanted them. I really did. But, I ate red grapes instead. Ordinarily, since I already "officially" weighed myself for the week, I might choose one and indulge. But, I don't think that I would feel good afterwards, I can't bike it off and I'm too lazy to innovate other type of exercise tonight. Also, there's Spooktacular to think about, with Sunday weigh in. Thanks, Spooktacular. Thanks, Karen!

Getting Spooktacular with Muffin Fixation

2010-09-22T12:48:00.000-07:00

I've decided to join the lovely & creative Karen at Muffin Fixation and other hard working bloggers in getting Spooktacular by Halloween! Find the details at Muffin Fixation .

In honor of the upcoming holiday, and to remind me of my fashion goals, I've got a special treat for you from Etsy:

Vintage 1920s-1930s Halloween Dress from Vint Condition

"This dress is constructed from a semi-sheer light pumpkin orange fabric. The neckline shows some hand-stitching, but the majority of the dress is machine stitched. The skirt of dress is constructed with some 2" wide ruffles. The waist is belted in black waxed cotton to give it some stiffness. Adorning the bodice is a black cat creeping along. The sleeves each have a bat. The front of the skirt has 3 bats. The back bodice features a pumpkin and a bat while the skirt has 2 bats. These adornments were crudely cut from black fabric and tacked on. The dress slips on over the head."

Isn't it cute? I'd like to have this just as a sweet Halloween decoration.

Bollywood themed workout and movie night

2010-09-21T12:12:00.000-07:00

Our plans for Sunday night fell through, so I was pretty much on my own for much of the evening. I decided to do a Bollywood night, starting with a workout and followed by a movie. Are you familiar with Bollywood? It's India's answer to Hollywood and many of the movies feature songs and lots of energetic dancing.

I checked out the Bollywood Burn workout from my library. Here's my summary for you:

What is needed: No special equipment. Room to move around, taking several steps forward, backward and to the sides.

Structure: Three fifteen minute dance routines, progressing in difficulty. 47 minutes total.

Special features: Freestyle dance performance. Audio options of music only or music with instruction.

My impressions: I watched this through once and then did the first two workouts. Workout done by two women and a man. For a Bollywood feel, the instructors are barefooted and rather glamorously dressed, with plenty of sparkle. I was not, wearing my usual sports bra & shorts ensemble with tennis shoes. The first segment is a warm up, and the second is faster, with some dance choreography. It involves a lot of jumping and kicking. I'm not comfortable doing much jumping (which is ridiculous for someone who wants a jump rope, eventually) so I tried to follow along with less impact. It looked fun, and maybe it would have been better if I would have done what they were doing, but slowed down it had the feel of old Jane Fonda aerobics for me. The instructors are very graceful, bouncing around lightly, but I have to say I felt elephantine, clomping around in my sneakers. I was also somewhat disappointed in the music; I thought it would have a little more flavor. These are just my own reactions, of course, but I don't think that I'll be doing this workout again.

I had a better time cycling to the Om Shanti Om CD, lent to me by my considerate coworker Floating Lush , who encouraged me to watch Om Shanti Om to begin with. The super energetic music gave my workout a push!

Check out "Dard E Disco" below:

Here is an English translation of the song from BollyWhat? The Guide for Clueless Fans of Bollywood Films :

Dard-e-Disco

The Pain of Disco

Woh haseena woh neelam pari

That beauty, white fairy

Kargayee kaisi jadoogari

Did some sort of magic

Neend in aankho se chheenli

Took the sleep from these eyes

Dil mein bechaniyian hai bhari

The heart is full of restlessness

Woh haseena woh neelam pari

Kargayee kaisi jadoogari

Neend in aankho se chheenli

Dil mein bechaniyian hai bhari

Main bechaara hoon aawara woh lo samjhaoon mein ab kis kis ko

Woe is me, I am lost and how many people can I tell

Dil mein mere hai dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco

In my heart is the pain of disco, the pain of disco, the pain of disco

Dil mein mere hai dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco

Dil mein mere hai dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco

Dil mein mere hai dard-e-disco

Dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco

The pain of disco, the pain of disco

Phasledil ki gulposhiyon ka mausam tha

The season of beauty it is in my heart

Hum par kabhi sargoshiyon ka mausam tha

On me it is the season of colours

Phasledil ki gulposhiyon ka mausam tha

Hum par kabhi sargoshiyon ka mausam tha

Kaisa junoon khaabon ke anjuman mein tha

What a feeling it is in my dreams

Kya main kahoon kya mere paas pun mein tha

What can I say about what I have?

Ranjish ka chala tha untha jo khaab ka

The feeling in my dreams, stung so badly

To phirta hoon main London, Paris, New York, Alai, San Francisco

So I roam in London, Paris, New York, Alai, San Francisco

Dil mein mere hai dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco

Dil mein mere hai dard-e-disco

Dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco

Lamha lamha armaanon ki famaayish thi

Every moment I had the wish to see my dreams come true

Lamha lamha jo ladki aasmayee thi

Every moment she took over me

Apne karam gir gir pe mujhpe barsa tha

When she dropped and rained on to me

Apne karam barsa to tab main tarsa tha

When she rained I became desperate

Phir soona huwa manzar mera

Then suddenly I was alone

Woh mera sanam dilbar mera

My lover

Phir tor gaya mujhe chor gaya

Broke me and left me

Pichle mahine ki chhabbis ko

On the twenty-sixth of the previous month

Dil mein mere hai dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco

Dil mein mere hai dard-e-disco

Dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco

Woh haseena woh neelam pari

Kargayee kaisi jadoogari

Neend in aankho se chheenli

Dil mein bechaniyian hai bhari

Main bechaara hoon aawara woh lo samjhaoon mein ab kis kis ko

Dil mein mere hai dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco

Dil mein mere hai dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco

Dil mein mere hai dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco

Dil mein mere hai dard-e-disco

Dard-e-disco, dard-e-disco

How fun and silly is that? I recommend the movie if you like melodrama, romance, glitter and lots of dance numbers.

After the workouts, I indulged in a little romantic comedy, Bollywood style with Honeymoon Travels Pvt.ltd. (Indian Cinema / Bollywood Movie / Hindi Film Comedy DVD) .

Six couples in different stages of their relationships are off on their Honeymoon trips on a tour bus. From a reluctant and sobbing bride and her clueless mate, to a freshly married mid-life couple,to a seemingly perfect pair who have been together since childhood, we learn their stories and empathize with them while also enjoying the film's lighter moments and song and dance numbers.

All in all I spent a very pleasant evening. Do you ever do themed workouts?

More Vintage dress temptations from Etsy

2010-09-19T14:14:00.000-07:00

Vintage 1940s black bombshell lace Wiggle dress from: Simplicity Is Bliss :

"This is a wonderful 1940s black cocktail wiggle dress. Short mini sleeves with a unique cut for the collar. The material is a blend of lace and texture. Cinched waist for a bombshell hour glass silhouette. There is a very unique gigantic side waist bow. Back metal zipper for closure."

50s Chiffon overlay party dress in hawaiian print from Redux Delux :

"50s fully lined dress in a teal and white Hawaiian print floral chiffon overlay. Gathered rouched front waist, metal side seam zipper. "

Vintage 1930s-1940s dress from Vintage Friends :

"The cafe au lait color cotton print has pale pink and cream flowers and leaves and features 2/3 length sleeves with openwork details, a v-neck with multiple layers of fabric, and soft gathers at the high waist.

Over the hips, front and back, is a diagonal pattern with cream trim, and an A-line skirt with front and back pleats to the hem. There are home-made ribbon like shoulder pads made from cotton fabric and cloth belt loops, but no belt."

Old Hollywood 1930s peach sheer garden party day dress from: Dolly Bird's Vintage :

"This dress...This 1930's long cut on the bias gown is a real original. I've never seen another one like it. Gorgeous puffed sleeves with a slit down the middle that create a super billowy appearance and create a capelet effect at the shoulders. Delicate ruching at the neck and shoulders, front and back and a sweet robins egg blue velvet ribbon detail at the neck. Ties around to the back of the neck with one button and a keyhole opening. Snaps up the center of the back. Beautiful flowers bloom out of the center front of the dress and more pale blue velvet ribbon drapes around delicately to create a belt that snaps in the back. This is one of the most ethereal and glamorous dresses i have ever come across, the colors, the details, the everything! I'm in love...so dreamy. This peach color is my favorite thing about the 20's and 30's. To die for!"

Non scale achievements make me happy!

2010-09-18T09:07:00.000-07:00

Happy me with Kristian and friends at the Minnesota State Fair

Okay, this post admittedly has nothing to do with the fair, but the photo above is an example of a grand old time for me. And I've had a couple of great non scale achievements lately! This is good, because my motivation has been flagging somewhat. I somehow hurt a muscle in my thigh, so I had to quit biking for about four days. Now I'm only going for an half an hour at a time, and taking it really easy. But, due to my current catlessness (pathetic disclosure coming up) I've been trolling our neighborhood for friendly kitties that I can pet, and this has turned into some long walks after work. So, all is not lost. I love walking around the streets where we live and just seeing what's going on. After dinner is my favorite time, when the light is getting softer and people are relaxing after work. I like to see the state of the gardens, and the many squirrels and bunnies attending to their evening activities. It's just a special time.

This past weekend, I was shifting out my semi-fall clothes: mid weight but not sweaters. There were a number of knit tops that I either haven't fit in years or else I've bought on sale because they almost fit and I have never actually worn. Guess what? They all fit. Some were too big! It was like going shopping in my closet. I banished some of the looser stuff to the give-away bag. That was a wonderful esteem booster. How about you? With seasonal wardrobe shifting, have you had any nice surprises?

The other big deal was that I went for my annual medical check up Thursday morning, and both my doctor and her nurse complimented me on my weight loss, which felt really good. Most importantly, my blood pressure is down to the normal range again. That is a huge relief! Both of my parents have high blood pressure, and I don't wish to take after them in that way. I was also screened for cholesterol level and diabetes. Let's keep our fingers crossed for those results.

And here's a teaser: I've completely changed my hair. New cut and color. Stay tuned!

A second blog award! Thanks Fluffy!

2010-09-13T09:17:00.000-07:00

I'm pleased to tell you that the magnificent and funny I'm Fluffy has given me another blog award! According to the Fluffy One,

"Here are the rules:

1. Post who gave you this award

2. State 10 things you like

3. Curse 10 other bloggers and notify them with a comment"

10 Things I like:

Grilled Cheese sandwiches
The Renaissance Festival
Pansies
Washing my dogs
Weeding my garden
Calling my mom
Sundays at home with Kristian
Sleeping in
Surprises
Shiny, sparkly stuff!

My Blogger nominees:

Carol Has Her Nose in a Book
Librarian DOA
The Floating Lush
Knitting In the Stacks
Bombshell Beauty
Shrinky Inky's Fine Adventures
The Adventures of Gingeyginge
The Vintage Lesbian
Chibi Jeebs and the Nerotic Struggle
Fat to Fit

Enjoy, everyone!

Vintage Dress Inspiration

2010-09-11T20:27:00.000-07:00

Here is more vintage wardrobe inspiration. I can't quite fit into these dresses, but my time will come, and hopefully I'll find some things that are just as fabulous. I can almost wear my tulip feed sack house dress. It fits through the waist now, but the bust is still a bit of squeak. As the fabric is old, I don't want to push my luck!

First up is a vintage early 1950s SWEET TEA cocktail dress by ANDORA from Simplicity is Bliss at Etsy.

"This is an outstanding early 1950s cocktail dress by ANDORA. The sweet pea pink color is so soft and lovely. The front is magnificent and filled with detail. The arms and part of the chest and back are a lovely sheer lace material. There is an incredible bow with rhinestones accented on it near the left bust. There are several detail darts under the bust. Cinched waist with a full skirt. The material is a silk taffeta blend. There is a side metal zipper for closure. The dress comes with its original belt."

VINTAGE 1940s Rayon Pink Diamond Print Dress from Vintage Betties also on Etsy.

"What an absolutely GORGEOUS dress this is!!! This is a FABULOUS vintage dress from the 1940s, made of a pink, white and aqua diamond print rayon fabric. The dress has no label, and appears to be handmade. Buttons are black with rhinestones - some of the rhinestones have been replaced, but this is not noticeable. All buttons are present. Belt loops are present, but the original belt is missing.
FABULOUS ruching/pleating at waist line.... creates BEAUTIFUL curves!"

Vintage 1950s pearl lace seashell cocktail dress from Simplicity is Bliss at Etsy.

"Vintage 1950s nude pink cocktail dress. The lace on this dress is incredible and is excellent condition. The color of the lace is a nude but there is a raw peachy pink silk lining underneath that makes this an beautiful eye catching dress. The top of the dress is double layered and the lace part is a like a caplet. There is a v-neck cut and incredible pearl and details around the trim. Side metal zipper for closure."

Vintage 1950s SULTRYSILVER Mad Men Era NOS Brocade Wiggle Dress from Fab Gabs .

"Love Mad Men era allure? Me too! This old store stock dress is marked a 22 1/2, with all its original tags attached... It is satin with wide matte rose brocade. It has short sleeves and an ultra flattering cut. Comes with its original self fabric belt, too! Made by "Landmark" of cotton and acetate. Original $22.99 back in the day - marked down to $11.88 on sale. (I love old prices!)"

Also from Fab Gabs, a "vintage 1950s Le Sophistique stunning red and black Peggy Hunt New Look dress with braided trim."

"It was only at the last minute that I found the designer tag that I KNEW this piece must have - and it is a Peggy Hunt. Everything about the piece screams designer quality. True California Couture. The material is a rich red rayon crepe, printed with inky black swirls. The braided trim at the collar and wide, turned cuffs is sophisticate - at the pockets, it is accented with dangle tassels that are really *just* the thing. It is FULLY lined with black acetate which helps give the dress structure. It buttons down the front, and is just perfect paired with a crinoline. A Fab Gabs favorite."

Tasty selections!

Memories of gym class = yikes!

2010-09-10T12:40:00.000-07:00

Coming to enjoy exercise (yep, it's still coming) hasn't been easy. When I was a little girl, I was not a natural athlete. In fact, I was not particularly coordinated. As an imaginative only child, I liked to make up pretend games and play with my dolls and stuffed animals, which was only semi-physical. In kindergarten, I had open heart surgery, so by the time I got to elementary gym class, I wasn't supposed to run or swim any laps. Plus, I had no desire to anyway. Gym class was a terror for me. Let me count the whys. :)

Our grade school gym teacher was a particularly unsympathetic lady with dyed frizzy red hair, and if memory serves, zip up jumpsuits. We all thought that she was OLD (I think she may have been in her sixties) and she certainly never participated in any of the activities except to yell at us and blow her whistle. Our gym games were always team sports. I was no asset to the teams. I was afraid of the ball. It seemed like the game we played most often was the dreaded prisoner Dodge Ball. We were a co-ed gym class, and when we were older and the girls were starting to develop, the boys would chuck the ball at your boobs as hard as they could. I would purposely get hit ASAP so I could sit out the rest of the game. Luckily, we only had gym class weekly in those days, or who knows how much I'd be shelling out for therapy today.

A more positive grade school experience was Baby Ballet. It was taught by Miss Diane, who told us to "fly through the air like Peter Pan!" It was fun, and I got to wear a tutu at our school recital. Although, I didn't get the pink one. My mom was just not pushy enough when the costumes were handed out. I ended up with blue, but my mom or grandma sewed pink roses on the skirt to make me feel better. Naturally, I wanted to be a ballerina when I grew up.

Unfortunately, there was no ballet in Junior high gym. In fact, my misery was enhanced by our stunningly horrible gym uniforms and school issue swim suits. The uniforms were some kind of knit polyester one piece. The t-shirt top bore horizontal stripes in shades of blue, blousing into navy blue stretch shorts. These shorts were not joking about being short. Then, I had the chic accompanying knee high white sweat socks and white tennies. None of these items enhanced my chubby self. Our swim suits were blue and would have been modest, except the top part had a way of working down and falling off the slimmer girls. Thankfully, our class was all girl by then or all this would have been even more mortifying.

Did I mention that I had first hour gym? This meant that you could ensure that you would be either sweaty and nasty or wet and flat haired in time for your next class and the rest of your day.

In Junior high, there was no "i" in "team." We laid off the dodge ball, but I found something new to hate and fear: softball. What a nightmare! Yes, I was the last person picked for the team. Yes, I spent time in the outfield, because I couldn't hit and I couldn't catch. The worst, though, was trying to bat and failing, with all eyes on me. Basketball wasn't much better. I was one of the shortest players, in addition to being one of the worst. So, for reasons that I still don't understand, I, as a small girl, was sometimes called on to try to make a shot. As a penalty for the other team, I imagine. I don't remember ever making it. Cue the violins!

Gym was one long list of couldn'ts. I wasn't able to climb a rope, jump off the diving board, climb with those pegs or anything else really. The only thing that I could kind of do was spike a volley ball. It was a time of humiliation, and I never thought that exercise could be fun. The one thing that I liked to do out of school was go on walks.

As an adult, I learned that there was so much more to exercise than what gym class had offered. As a college freshman, I took a ballet class in the summer and found out something. I am flexible! I could do a turnout and put my leg straight up the wall. Working hard, I could really give it my all and I had physical skills that not everyone had. This was news to me. Workouts could be personal. They could be what you like and if others judged you, it wasn't important.

Since then, I have learned the pleasure of yoga, belly dancing and burlesque dancing, and of the satisfying results gained from aerobics and stationary biking. As I approach fifty, I become more open to more physical things. Why have I never tried tennis, swimming, or ballroom dancing? Why shouldn't I hula hoop, jump rope, ice skate or go bowling? Who cares if I can't do it well? So what if I look silly? I want to be able to enjoy the capability and potential of my body while I've still got it to use. I hear by promise to try some new things and pursue the one I like best before spring!

A Blog Award! I'd like to thank the academy...and Stephanie!

2010-09-08T15:12:00.000-07:00

I'm really honored to receive a Blog Award for this young blog and I'm very grateful to Stephanie at She's In There Somewhere for giving it to me. Now, I need to tell you seven things about myself and then nominate seven other bloggers.

If you've read my "About Me", then you probably already know more about me than you want to! But, Here goes:

I'm hoping to join the Master Gardener's program through University of Minnesota this winter.
I am a crazy cat lover! When I'm through mourning the loss of my cat, we're going to get a kitten, to complete our family of two dachshunds and us.
I love autumn and Halloween.
I am very patient with people and completely impatient with objects (especially those that need to be assembled).
I believed in the Easter bunny until I was about ten years old.
I still believe in fairy tales, but not so much the "some day my prince will come" kind. More like "the Goose Girl," "Bluebeard's Egg," and "East O' the Sun, West O' the Moon."
Speaking of which, my academic hero is folklorist Jack Zipes. My dog is named after him.

Now for my nominees:

Weight Watchers Wannabee

Ruminations and Uncovering: Toward a New Me!

In Pursuit of My Inner Pinup

Tales Of the Incredible Shrinking Nery

Girl Stuck In a Rut

All the Weigh

and one on a different subject: Auntie K's Garden

Love your blogs, ladies! Pass it on.

Future Reward Dress

2010-09-03T09:27:00.000-07:00

When I hit my first goal of 199 lbs., I've decided to reward myself with a really nice dress. I've had my eye on Kiyonna's lace dresses for some time. This one is their 3/4 Sleeved Scalloped Boudoir Lace Dress. It also comes in black lace with black lining and chocolate with chocolate lining, but I want to go for the glam and get black lace with nude lining, as shown. At $148.00, it is a little spendy for me, but this is a special treat.

You can see the rest of their dresses at Kiyonna:dresses .

Judging from their Size Chart, if I ordered right now, I'd be on the border between a 2x and 1x. When I lose my 11 lbs., I assume I'll be a solid (no pun intended) 1x. I'm getting excited!

Size :

0x: 10 12, Bust 40.5-44, Waist 34.5-38, Hips 44.5-48
1x : 14 16, Bust 44.5-48, Waist 38.5-42, Hips 48.5-52
2x: 18 20, Bust 48.5-52,  Waist 42.5-46,  Hips 52.5-56
3x: 22 24, Bust 52.5-56,  Waist 46.5-50,  Hips 56.5-60
4x: 26 28, Bust 56.5-62,  Waist 50.5-56,  Hips 60.5-66
5x: 30 32, Bust 62.5-68,  Waist 56.5-62,  Hips 66.5-72

What ways, big and small, do you reward yourself for sticking to your healthy lifestyle goals?

True, there is great satisfaction in the changes themselves. I am thrilled with every lb. down for the way that my clothes fit better, or looser, for the way that my body is altering. I'll be going for a check up with my doctor soon, and I hope to see changes in my blood pressure, which will be a huge reward. There is also pleasure in knowing that I'm getting stronger, that I can bike for longer at a higher level without fainting. That I can climb stairs easier and squat to shelve books longer without it hurting. I'm proud when my family and friends compliment me for sticking to my goals.

On a more concrete level, I decided to treat myself with an inexpensive sterling silver charm for every five lbs that I lose. I plan to start three bracelets, one about me, another about Kristian and me, and a third as a story bracelet, with charms representing fairy tales and books I love. These won't be Italian charms or fancy beads, but old school dangly charms like I wore as a girl. So far, I've only bought one, that I got at Hoover Dam on our recent trip to Nevada. But, I have a Storyteller charm from a visit to the Grand Canyon, and a princess crown studded with marcasite that I've had waiting in the wings.

Dreaming of the dress!

Twenty Lbs Down and Houlihan's Restaurant

2010-08-30T09:13:00.000-07:00

I began this post last Thursday, after I did my "official" home weekly weigh-in:

Hooray, in spite of my anxiety, general craziness and lack of patience in weighing myself, I've now lost twenty lbs! It was a tough week keeping my motivation up, since I had no immediate scale gratification. I can't visually judge my body with any degree of accuracy. I can understand how people with anorexia can have a distorted body image. How I see my figure seems completely controlled by my emotions, so when I didn't have any concrete proof of my progress, I'd look in the mirror and think, "Do my thighs look fatter? Is my stomach larger or smaller?" I try not to obsess, but it is difficult.
Kristian said that my legs are looking shapelier, which was super sweet of him.
So, I feel happy and thin (ner)!

This week, I tried to do some ab exercises on a mat (more about this in a upcoming post) and my dogs went wild with delight. They were sure that I was on the floor to play with them. It made my attempts kind of ridiculous. They were play fighting where my legs should go, and I ended up crunching with a ten lb. Zoe on my chest. I don't know if she made things worse, but muscles all through my torso ached for two days after.

Finally, we went to Houlihan's Restaurant for dinner on Wednesday, which was a new place for us. I was very happy to discover that they have something called "Small Plates." The idea is that you can order more than one and sample different dishes. My idea was that I could order one, and still have room for a small dessert (I know, so much to learn). So, I got the 4 oz grilled salmon with mashed potatoes and a watercress salad. It was the perfect amount and so delicious. The salad had balsamic dressing, and I have to admit I wasn't crazy about the combo; it seemed bitter to me. But, I am not a natural salad lover. I'm trying to learn to want it. After dinner, Kristian and I split a s'mores fondue crock, which is, "Warm chocolate ganache, marshmallows with crystallized graham cracker sticks & strawberries." It was fantastic!They do offer mini desserts for one. We were very pleased with the meal, and the price, and plan on going back often. Minus the dessert, it will be a perfectly reasonable and satisfying place to eat out yet support a healthier eating style.

Nevada vacation = healthy eating challenges + fun!

2010-08-19T18:16:00.000-07:00

Picture from Wackystuff on Flickr, who describes it as a: "1940s pin-up card dispensed from penny arcade vending machines."

We came home yesterday after five days in Nevada. We had a great time, visiting relatives in Boulder City and spending 24 hours together in Las Vegas. Since this is my fitness blog, I'll keep my summary relevant: this was challenging to a healthy lifestyle! Since we were guests of my husband's family, we didn't choose the restaurants we went to, and I was frequently tempted to overindulge by the yummy-sounding choices on the menus . I tried to stick to my healthier habits, and sometimes I did okay. I drank no soda the entire trip, only water with lemon. I admit that I wavered the night of our dinner in Vegas, but fortunately, they only had Pepsi, and my poison is Coke, so I opted out. When I had sandwiches, I refused the French fries and had fruit or cottage cheese instead. I turned down dessert, although not always. We filled the guesthouse fridge with fruit and Breyers Smooth and Dreamy chocolate carmel ice cream sandwiches.

My plan was to avoid weighing myself for a week, and stick to better habits now that I'm home. I did workout last night after we returned. But, I couldn't stay off the scale. I told myself that it wouldn't count, that it was evening and I was fully clothed. And the scale said...I lost six pounds. I couldn't believe it. True, I wore my new clothes and they continued to fit me, but it seemed too good to be true. Guess what? It was. I weighed myself twice, got the same reading, demanded of Kristian if the scale could be off, and once I accepted it, I went back upstairs and weighed myself again. Unfortunately, that time, and two more times, showed that I've only lost a pound. Now, I doubt even that, so I haven't recorded it. So, I'm staying off the scale until next Thursday morning, when I do my "official" weigh in.

Really.

I mean it.

My healthy lifestyle anchor: a stationary bike!

2010-08-12T17:59:00.000-07:00

My bike and my dog Zoe

Programming the bike for my workout

Yes, it's a Schwinn 140

Gratuitous photo of Zoe and Jack begging for treats after my workout

Six days a week I ride my stationary bike, a Schwinn 140. Yesterday, I finally moved up to peddling for an hour. I feel proud of this, because when I began, I think around the end of June, it was a struggle for me to finish 20 minutes. I seriously sounded like an obscene phone call. I was also afraid of breaking into a sweat and getting my heart pounding, because I thought that I might have a heart attack. I've found that hasn't happened.

Here is a little bike background. My husband and I wanted to get a stationary bike that we could both use. He was the driving force behind us choosing one, because he began to change his lifestyle for the healthier months before I did. He did some research and we settled on the Schwinn 140 Upright Exercise Bike .

It can hold someone 300 lbs, so I felt confident that I wouldn't break it and we read somewhere that it was appropriate for people 5' tall and up and was adjustable. So, we ordered it from Amazon, on sale and with free shipping. Kristian had to put it together, which was not fun, but it was worth it. One important caution however, if you are petite. I'm 5' 2" with very short legs and it was a struggle for me to reach the peddles. This was very frustrating and upsetting for me, but Kristian took it to a machine shop at our church (who knew?) and they bored an extra hole in the pole that raises and lowers the seat, so that my little legs could peddle. :) The other problem that I had at first, and sometimes still, is that the seat hurts my bottom. It is oversized, but it can be pretty uncomfortable. I think I've toughened up, because it's less trouble now. Those things aside, I'm very happy with this bike.

I like that the bike keeps track of calories burned and miles covered. It tells you how fast you are peddling as you ride ( I'm not sure if it's counting revolutions or what, but if my number gets to a certain range when I'm going to it, I'm happy). Now that I'm working out for an hour, I'm up to 16 ish miles and 450 + calories burned during that time. The bike has different levels; I think that it goes up to 16. I'm now on 10. It also has different pre-programmed courses and circuits, which I rotate through.

The best time for me to workout is right after work before Kristian gets home. Then I can turn up some music and go to town. My dog Jack sometimes thinks that I'm playing with him and tries to grab the pedal as I turn it, but he tires of that pretty quickly. I find I put more effort in if I bike to music early in the evening. If I do it later at night, Kristian and I will watch a DVD together like The Closer: The Complete Second Season,

NCIS Naval Criminal Investigative Service - The Complete Third Season or All Creatures Great & Small - The Complete Series 3 Collection.

I called this an anchor for me because if I'm not losing weight as quickly as I should or I feel like I'm losing motivation or eating more than I should, I do my workout and think that I'm doing what I should. If I do it, I will eventually lose more weight. I want to keep this up and add in some hula hooping, yoga and some weight bearing exercise.

My favorite summer ice cream treats

2010-08-10T11:07:00.000-07:00

As I have mentioned before, I have a major sweet tooth. I have lost 16 lbs this summer, but I still needed my daily sweet fix. Aside from eating more fruit, I've been heavily dependent on Breyers Smooth and Dreamy ice cream bars and sandwiches. I eat one of these daily, usually after I finish my biking workout. I can't believe how good they taste, and I am picky. Also, as far as I know, they contain no artificial sweeteners. I just don't like those. I know, it's ridiculous, considering every other artificial thing that I consume. I would like to try their Smooth and Dreamy scoopable ice cream, but for now, I'm enjoying the portion control.

My favorite flavors are above, especially the Chocolate Carmel Brownie sandwich.
Try them!

Nutrition information available here .

New clothes for the not-as-fat girl

2010-08-05T12:55:00.000-07:00

Kristian and I went shopping for some new clothes last weekend. That does not happen all that often, but we were in need. My jeans were just getting too baggy, and he needed some new boots.So, we ventured to Mall of America, aka The Mall of Hysteria. Have you been there? It's incredibly huge and busy and parking there is an art. I usually go to Southdale, but today we pulled out all the stops.

First we went to DSW and I found the Softspots Aster Mary Janes above. I am thrilled with them! I normally wear a 6 1/2, but these came in my ridiculous real size which is 6WW. I think that they are cute. I love the flower, they have a wedge but not a higher heel, so I can stand in them at work all day, and they are not open toed or heeled, so I can wear them through 3 Minnesota seasons. Yeah!

Then we went to Lane Bryant, and I bought some daringly small clothes. I guess that I have some body distortion, because you can ask any of my friends and coworkers and they will tell you that I wear my clothes too big. I have this fear of putting all of my tummy rolls on display. However, I had my husband take some photos of me for "Beforish" pictures for the blog, and I was unhappy to see that you couldn't tell that I have a waist, even though I do. So, I decided to trust him and the sales women over my own instincts, at least fit-wise. I got a pair of their petite straight leg jeans. The sales woman was a whiz at looking at me and knowing which pair would look best. I knew I wanted a straight leg cut, because I have relatively slender legs, but I would've gone for the Red size 22 (Lane Bryant has its own jean sizing system). This is supposed to be if you are moderately curvy. She showed me how I could go down to a Red size 20 or try a Yellow size 22. It is a narrower cut, but the material has stretch and actually it looked good on me. The placement of the pockets made my behind look shapely, even though it's really kind of flat. A winner. Then I bought some black trousers. I am 5'2", so they will have to go to the tailor to be hemmed, but I can wear the jeans right now!

Shopping for t-shirts was more of a stretch mentally. I bought four in red, pink, blue and purple. I was shocked to find that the fit of choice was a size 18/20! I've been wearing a 26/28. I was even encouraged to try on a size 14/16, but it was just too clingy for me. Kristian really liked the ones we got, though. He looked at me and said, "you've got curves, baby!" I left the store feeling elated.

The next day I tried on my clothes as whole outfits and did a little fashion show. Then I panicked. What was I thinking buying these fitted clothes? What was Kristian thinking letting me get them? What if people laughed at me or thought that I was mutton dressed as lamb? But, on Monday I wore my purple shirt and my old jeans to work. My coworkers were very nice, and complimented me a lot. Today I decided to be brave and go for it and I'm wearing the shoes, jeans, and red t-shirt. I've had nothing but positive reaction. So...

Inspirational people: My Man & Bitchcakes

2010-07-29T18:12:00.000-07:00

My husband!

Two people really inspired me to try to make these lifestyle changes to improve my health and shape up my body: my husband, and another weight loss blogger, Ms. Bitchcakes.

My husband and I are well matched in most ways, including our physical attractiveness (to each other at least ;) and our larger sizes. But, my husband, Kristian, has recently lost 28 lbs. To me, his willpower seemed to come out of thin air. He started eating salads for dinner, oatmeal for lunch and things like nuts or dry cereal for snacks. I pretty much stood back and watched, wary but proud. He's looking great!

The beautiful Sheryl from *Bitchcakes*

Then somehow, I'm not sure how, I stumbled across a link to *Bitchcakes*:a Neurotic Glamour Girl's Weight Watchers Experience and Fitness Adventures . Most likely if you're reading me, you already know her. We have never met, in fact, she has no idea who I am. But, her name is Sheryl, and she is a super inspiration. She recently weighed in at three lbs under her goal weight . Weeks ago, when I found her site, I was struck by her vintage style beauty, the fact that we're the same height, that she began at over 200 lbs and was always gorgeous, and that she started out with a vegetarian focus to her diet ( she is now a vegan). She records each of her weight watcher meetings, biking on her Hello Kitty cruiser, what she eats and much more. Her site is basically a gold mine if you need a little push in the right direction. I kept reading and reading her blog, and decided that if she can do such a smashing job of shaping up, then I can too! XO, Sheryl. Keep writing!

Turning into a Blueberry

2010-07-26T11:27:00.000-07:00

I've been eating blueberries like crazy! I must be doing something right because I've lost two more lbs, and I now weigh 217. I think blueberries are my favorite fruit. Which is funny, because I don't ever remember eating them as a child, and I know my dad has always eaten every kind of fruit. In college, when I didn't think that I liked them, a friend of mine had a pint, and they looked so cooling that I begged one. And then a few more, and more until I was cut off and then my passionate future with blueberries was sealed.

Maybe the reason I never ate blueberries though, is that I was psychologically damaged by the little girl character Violet Beauregarde changing into a blueberry in Roald Dahl's Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (first film version known as Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory)! ;) I had already read the book when I went to see the movie in the 1970s, and I don't remember being too upset by Violet's transformation until then. I went to the film with my cousins, and my cousin Andy was sensibly freaked out by the psychedelic tunnel scene, which seems to have bothered many kids at the time. But, that's not what gave me nightmares. It was watching Violet, who stubbornly tried an experimental chewing gum dinner before it was ready, lose control of her body and change into something inhuman and unwieldy.

Violet Beauregarde is now a certain blue fruit in Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory

I don't believe that I was at all disturbed by nasty kids getting their comeuppance. They could turn Augustus Gloop into fudge or send Veruca Salt down the garbage shoot for all I cared, but when I went to bed that night, I was afraid to fall asleep for fear that I would turn into a blueberry like Violet. This was sort of a baby predecessor of the childhood terror I felt at the idea of The Exorcist (which I've never seen) or the psychotic child with the alternate personality in The Other (that I saw at a slumber party and then had to go home in the night because I was afraid). These unexpected things taking you over from within and possibly destroying who you had been up to that point. Scary. As an adult, I would sometimes joke about it, "I used to be afraid of turning into a blueberry, and now I kind of have!" Lately though, I've been feeling like I have much more control of myself and my cravings.

Violet morphs in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

And, it's important to remember that Violet didn't get to look that way from eating too many blueberries. She transformed because she was a brat who wouldn't listen to what she was told. So, If I have to look like a blueberry, I choose this one:

Blueberry Muffin Costume

It's pretty silly though. Just like this post.

Product Review: Smart Ones Pasta with Ricotta & Spinach

2010-07-24T11:37:00.000-07:00

As I have mentioned before, I'm kind of lazy. Also, I find cooking really stressful (I love to bake, which is not as helpful right now). In fact, in our house, my husband cooks, and I do the dishes and the laundry. So, if I can take a frozen meal to work for lunch, I'm good to go. I know that this is not as healthy as preparing fresh food, but right now I'm just trying to get into a pattern of eating more reasonable servings. Where I work, we like to go out for lunch frequently, and our favorites are Noodles and Carbones pizza. This is my alternative plan.

Today I tried Smart Ones Pasta with Ricotta & Spinach (see nutrition information here). This is apparently a new flavor. I think that the sauce was tasty, if a little bland, and the noodles had a nice texture, but the amount of spinach was laughable. See the box cover above, with all that green? That was nowhere to be found in my dish. Seriously, the spinach was speck sized. My co-worker Vickie looked and commented, "If you bought that for the spinach, you were ripped off!" Nevertheless, it was a passable lunch, and I ate lots of blueberries for dessert to improve the experience. Maybe I will buy it again. We'll see.

Me, I want a hula hoop!

2010-07-23T16:25:00.000-07:00

I saw a weighted hula hoop in an old Weight Watchers magazine and now I want one! It looks like a fun way to work out, and I want to slim down my waist. As I mentioned, I am super happy with my breast reduction, but I'm no longer the hour glass that I was. I'd like a more defined waistline and I hear that hooping is a great way to get one. At $42.00, I find this pretty expensive, but it's a one shot cost, so I'm willing. We just paid some huge vet bills this last week (with a sad outcome), so I'll be putting off the purchase for a little bit.

Confession: I've never been able to keep a hula hoop going. They dropped immediately to the floor. But, I've read that the heavy hoops are much easier to keep up. Also, read that it's a back and forth motion originating from the feet, which I certainly wasn't doing before. I was trying a round and round hip motion. On a scary note, I saw in the Amazon reviews that these hoops bruise you until you get used to them. Oh, goody. Yet, I'm still rarin' to go. You can file this in the "youthful folly" type exercise that I want to try out in spite of my age, along with jump rope and roller blading (break out the pads and pillows!)

Anybody have any hooping advice?

For fun, let me acquaint you with burlesque beauty Lula Houp-Garou, who hoops in her acts. Read more about her at: her homepage .

Image from Vaudezilla

Her take off on Tippi Hedren in The Birds is awesome.

My desired hoop: Weighted Sports Hula Hoop for Weight Loss - Acu Hoop 5 lb. Boxed

Vintage Clothing Inspiration!

2010-07-23T15:32:00.000-07:00

Beautiful "Vintage 1940s DAYBREAK Rayon Bias Cut Nightgown with Coordinated Nylon Chiffon Jacket"

from Fab Gabs on Etsy.

"The Megan- Vintage 1940s 1950s WWII Rockabilly Pin Up Bombshell Pale Pink White Polka Dot Sheer Belted Sailor Tie Neck Short Sleeves Organza Summer Party Day Dress" from Bohemian Bisoux.

"Vintage late 40's early 50's BLACK BEAUTY pencil dress with embroidered lace pockets" from The Dust Peddler.

"Lovely Lace... 1940s Rayon Lace and Rhinestones Cocktail Dress...Stunning 1940s navy dress with amazing details. The lace bodice features integral cap sleeves and a very unusual detail, where the lace gathers over the collar to meet the neckline with a rhinestone buckle (all stones present and correct). The skirt has a waist peplum at the front with pintuck pleats falling into a graceful drape." From Tuppence Ha'Penny

Le sigh.

My Breast Reduction: Before and After

2010-07-18T13:39:00.000-07:00

January 2009

October 2009

I made a huge change to my body last year. After years of debating, I decided to have breast reduction surgery. Here is the difference my surgery made. The first photo is from January 2009, with my husband. My reduction was in April '09. The last photo is how I've looked since. My general weight is about the same.

I'm so glad that I decided to have the surgery. It has changed my life. The recovery was not a piece of cake, but it was so worth it. Before, I knew that no matter how much weight I lost, certain clothes would always be off limits to me. I would never be able to wear pretty bras. Even in high school, when I weighed 102 lbs, I was beyond a D cup. Additionally, there was the strain on my back and the general difficulty I had exercising. Simply put, my breasts were in the way.

All that has changed now. I never thought that I could look and feel like this. It is a great motivator for me to get in shape!

Questions welcome. Have a great Sunday!

Inspiration: Vintage Style Bathing Suits!

2010-07-16T20:39:00.000-07:00

First up is this gorgeous Marilyn-inspired suit from Pin Up Girl Clothing. I pretty much love it! It's pink, shirred, skirted and has darling little rhinestone brooches beneath each strap. Hubba hubba.

How cute is this bloomer leg suit from Zelda Sweetwater? It's called Nina, and I think that it's darling. If only it were pink...

Like this one:

Also from Zelda Sweetwater, this is called Jane. I love the pale pink and the cute bodice!

Hey Sailor! Fables by Barrie Retro Matey One Piece Swimsuit from Unique Vintage Too fun!

Sweet little Kitty from Swing Dance Shop Yes, you can wear it in the water.

Hi Ho Cherry-O! Pink Cherry Sheath from My Baby Jo

The last word in adorable nautical suiting from What Katie Did

I'm going to keep these images in my head to help me reach my goals. How about you? You like?

Shaping Up Wishes

2010-07-15T16:49:00.000-07:00

Nearer goals:

Be a size 22 all of the time (no waffling back and forth between 22 and 26)
Have my underclothes fit better
Be able to fit my garter belts again ( I don't like pantyhose)
Have my necklaces get looser
Be able to put on special occasion, work supplied t-shirts without worry (Next up: shirt for Camp Read -A-Lot in August)
Exercise for a) 45 b)50 c)55 d)60 minutes a day, 6 days a week
Feel proud of each little accomplishment
Fit into the vintage 30s or 40s tulip patterned feed sack dress I bought. It's still too small in the chest and area above the waist.

Long range goals:

Be more comfortable in heels
Be able to wear boots!
Have a towel close around me
Lose the abdominal rolls visible under clothing
Lower my blood pressure!
Have a waist under 35 inches for better health
Shop for clothes in a non plus size store
Be more comfortable in booths and airplane seats
Buy cute Indian clothes besides saris
Feel sexier in burlesque
Wear a cute vintage style bathing suit

Product Review: Fage Greek Yogurt

2010-07-13T12:35:00.000-07:00

A splendid new discovery for me is Fage (pronounced "Fa-Yeh") Total 2% yogurt. I love it! It is available plain or with honey, peach, strawberry or cherry.

I am eating this for breakfast, part of lunch or a snack and it is helping to satisfy my sweet tooth. My history with yogurt is that sometimes I'm really in the mood for it, and I'll go on a streak of wanting it all the time, and then suddenly it is unappealing to me and I have to wait until it seems attractive again. I don't like the soft consistency of most yogurts, period. Until now, my yogurt of choice has been either Yoplait Thick & Creamy yogurt strawberry (190 calories & 7 grams of protein for 6 oz according to their website) or lemon flavors or Yoplait Whips! Strawberry Mist or Orange Cream (140 cal & 5 grams protein for 4 oz). The chocolate flavor tasted like another mysterious fruit, but not like chocolate, so I just couldn't warm to it.

I am hoping to have a more consistent relationship with Fage. One thing I like is the texture, which is thick like sour cream. The plain yogurt is tangy and when you add in the sweet stuff, it tastes like a little dessert. My husband thinks that it is like cheesecake. I wouldn't go that far, but it is yummy. Fage honey has 180 calories & 10 grams protein in 5.3 oz. The fruit flavors in the same size carton have 130 cal. & 11 grams protein. You can find more nutritional info here.

Picture courtesy of Bite of the Best

So, who am I anyway?

2010-07-12T15:10:00.000-07:00

Hi, I'm Donell. You may have similar weight and fitness goals as I do. Here are some things about me that may be relevant. I'm 5' 2" tall with a long torso, long waist and short arms and legs. Small bones, muscular and plenty of fat. Described as an apple shape or hourglass by some systems. I tend to carry most of my weight in my tummy. I was very large breasted, but I had breast reduction surgery last April, and now I'm just reasonably big breasted.

I admit it, I love to eat. I have a wicked sweet tooth. I especially love cake or cute cupcakes. I'm a semi-vegetarian or pescetarian, that is, I no longer eat land animals or fowl, but I do eat seafood. This has been my diet for 15 years. My friends laugh at me because I'm a sort of vegetarian who doesn't love vegetables. Starch, though, I like. Pasta, rice, bread, potatoes. Yum.

I can honestly say that I do not eat very healthily. I eat a lot of processed food, in addition to other less than great feeding habits. I hope to change this. Exercise wise I'm...you guessed it...lazy. I like the way I feel when I'm doing a dance workout or yoga. I like the feeling when I'm finished working out on my exercise bike. But, it's hard for me to keep to a routine.

In the last three weeks or so, I've lost nine pounds by eating better and execrcising. As of now I feel inspired, but I may join Weight Watchers if I need help. Currently, I've been eating a modest breakfast (yes, I'm a breakfast skipper), eating more fruit, going out to lunch less, drinking more water and no soda, and cutting way back on sugary snacks or desserts. I've also been riding the EB (exercise bike) six days a week. I'm currently at 40 minutes a day, 10 miles per workout.

So, anyway, I guess those are the basics. If you do happen to stumble upon this very new blog, introduce yourself! Can we inspire each other in our quest for fitness?

What's motivating me? The good, the not as good and the uglish

2010-07-12T10:30:00.000-07:00

Good:

Improved Health

Reduce risk of heart disease
Reduce likelihood of diabetes
lower blood pressure

Not as Good:

Vanity

be able to wear vintage 1930s-1960s fashion
be able to wear reproductions of said fashions
be able to wear any fashions that I want!

Uglish:

Insecurity

still weigh less than my husband
feel better about myself, even though it's who you are that counts and all that...

Welcome

2010-07-11T14:12:00.000-07:00

Welcome to my brand new blog. My intention is to record my day to day triumphs and setbacks in my attempts to lose weight, become more fit, and improve my health.

I'm 47 years old, and it seems like I spent too much time from age 10 to 26 on a diet. Diet became a forbidden word for me, and I've spent the years trying to accept my size and be happy as I was. I've tried not to let my weight stand in the way of feeling beautiful, glamorous and desirable. I've done okay. But, lately I've been thinking about the many things I would do in my life if I wasn't afraid. And I've decided that it's time for me to change my shape. On my own terms. Not by dieting per se, but by making healthy choices in what I eat and how and how much I exercise.

More to come!